“I was my mother’s first heart attack.” So began our interview. Her mother Shirley, nine months pregnant and due at any time had a heart attack. An hour later she went into labor. No one remembers how long it lasted – the focus was on the issue at hand – would she live? This was before the first bypass surgery was performed in the United States so there wasn’t the optimistic hope we have today. Eventually Julie Anne (she was named after a nun) was born – the second of what would be eight children. Today we know her as Mother Macaria.
Mom’s Heart Condition
Shirley had a rare heart condition called Wolfe Parkinson White Type B (a specific type of abnormality of the electrical system of the heart) but they didn’t discover that until 10 years later. As it turns out, a bypass would not have helped since it did not involve clogged veins. Shirley’s episodes caused her to go into v-fib in which the heart beats quickly and out of rhythm. It usually causes patients to pass out, but Shirley never did so she was conscious when they started beating on her chest to stop the arrhythmia, allowing the heart to re-establish an effective rhythm. She didn’t want to die awake with doctors beating on her chest. Today they would have used a defibrillator to accomplish the same thing. We’ll get back to this part of the story a little later.
Born in Springfield, Massachusetts, Julie and her family moved to Cincinnati when she was eight. Her father was an executive with Monsanto so there were more moves ahead. A friend of her mother joked that they all bled Monsanto blue. After Cincinnati came St. Louis, Missouri, then Massachusetts for a year, and back to Missouri due to a promotion.
Difficult Years
These were difficult years for Julie. She was the target of bullying and tended to be a slow learner. Other students called her “retarded” and “dysfunctional.” Today she would fall somewhere on the Asperger’s spectrum and receive additional help. Back then she was labeled as “First in the Dumbbell Row.” What they didn’t seem to notice was that even though she was a slow learner, once she understood a subject, she quickly advanced several levels.
Julie determined to use every family move to her advantage. She saw each new location as an opportunity to establish herself without the baggage of the past. She came to the realization that she was not stupid! In high school she joined the debate club – what better activity for a desperately shy person with a speech impediment to learn and grow? Her parents objected. Didn’t she know she had a speech impediment and debate was all about making compelling verbal arguments? Yes, she did know, but what she wasn’t admitting to them was that she hoped to learn how to win an argument at home!
Debate Career
The debate teacher was an amazing man who had a positive influence on her. As Julie struggled to learn, he was encouraging and helpful. His position was that he would invest his efforts in students who would really work hard and Julie definitely qualified. During two summers in between semesters, Julie attended a six week debate course in St. Louis in order to improve her skills. Her debate teacher arranged for her to get speech therapy, which was helpful when he assigned her to participate in an Oral Interpretation competition. The student was expected to read and interpret a poem. Julie’s score was marked down for having memorized and recited the three page poem rather than reading it. “But,” she protested, “I didn’t mean to memorize it. It was an accident!”
In between, Julie had one of her poems published in a literary magazine. When she went to the course the next year everyone knew her as the author of the poem. Positive recognition! This was a new experience. During the second summer she and her debate partner got into the quarter finals in debate. Her struggle to learn and improve was paying off. Of her debating career she says, “It was good to learn to be hyper analytical because that certainly was not my nature!”
During this time she also volunteered at the United Cerebral Palsy Center in the youth and adult section. After high school Julie went to the University of Missouri where she wanted to “major in everything.” She studied creative writing, poetry, and special education among other things.
Back to Her Mother Shirley
When Julie was 22, Shirley jumped at the chance to have experimental heart surgery. Her reasoning was that her participation might lead to finding a way to correct the heart condition that she and others suffered from. She was also convinced that she would die during the surgery and therefore could avoid dying while doctors beat on her chest.
Shirley wrote a letter each to her children and friends. She left instructions that they not be mailed until after she was in surgery. Each letter expressed her understanding that she would die in surgery and then conveyed a personalized message of love and appreciation. Shirley was 22 when Julie was born and Julie was 22 when Shirley died.
Julie had been sensing a call to follow Christ. She considered the courses she had been taking – to what effect? They had nothing to offer except being interesting. She had become interested in a particular community of Christians. Her mother had objected. “Go visit them,” she advised, “and then come back home and think about it.” By now Julie understood that loving and serving God was the higher call – even if it meant leaving your parents. After her mother’s death she joined the community. Her father disowned her, but much later he repented of that.
Completing her initial training in Chicago and Denver, Julie also took disaster training with the Red Cross. She served in West Virginia and eventually went to California where she put her disaster training to work during the 1989 earthquake (6.9 magnitude). She and another member of the community were on the Disaster Action Team every Friday and Saturday night.